I’ve started seven or eight posts in the past week or so.
I’ve finished none.
They range in topic from the intensely trivial to the extremely heavy.
All over the board.
A reflection of where my life is right now. Always: A tension between the surface and the interior.
Sometimes the juxtaposition seems more extreme than at other times.
Huge things are happening. There are some really big stories to tell. But they are not mine alone to share. No man is an island. So I’ve become tongue-tied.
There’s a major block in this wannabe-writer’s path.
Last week, I flitted around being social (for a change)… having surface encounters with different people… and all the while, there are these huge things that I’m pondering in my heart.
It makes me feel a bit like a fraud.
I’ve tried to make honesty and transparency hallmarks of this blog. But right now, it’s difficult. Some things are obscure even to me. And must remain so for now.
I’m not even sure where I’m headed with these comments.
I guess what I’m asking for is some grace.
I know it’s frustrating for daily blog-checkers when I take inexplicable long absences. But the writing is always, always better when it’s not just me sounding off about something. When I wait for something to be revealed. And that doesn’t happen on command.
So right now I’m waiting and listening. And praying.
I guess I would ask that, too, of my faithful blog readers. I especially ask it of those of you who have grown to care about our family, and have stuck with us and prayed us through some terrible storms.
I’m humbly asking you to pray for us again now.
To pray without even knowing why.
Without knowing all the juicy details.
I’ve learned that this is the most effective prayer of all, because our own human slant on things is absent then.
The Spirit Himself intercedes:
“And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.” (Romans 8:26, NLT)
In doing that for us, you become a part of the wonderful story that God is writing even now.
I hope I’ll be allowed to be His scribe one day.
Thank you for your role. It gives me chills to think of how mysteriously we are all knit together in this intricate tapestry of life.
(In the meantime, maybe we can get some of those trivial pursuits up this week. Because life is all of it.)
Also, please check the prayer lady for the latest prayer requests and scroll down to the bottom. (I know it’s annoying… need to learn how to reverse comments.) The Francis family is experiencing a situation far worse than anything we’ve been through. Please intercede for them as well!